Been a long while

It has been a long while since i blogged. Gosh! Where should I start again?

It had been 2 years since my wedding. Alhamdulillah, my marriage has been good so far. The only missing piece is a child of our own to complete our family. I am still waiting for the moment to be pregnant and bearing a child for us. We have been trying but I guess, He has other plans for us. And, I will wait patiently, insya-Allah.

Work...
I was promoted to a Team Manager and moved to head 2 teams now in a totally different environment. I am grateful for the blissful life Allah has given me.

I started wearing tudung for almost 2 years but took it off again due to severe hair loss. Guess, my vanity still overpowers anything else. Haha!

Family...
Many things happened. We fell out with our father. This time, it is almost permanent. I feel more peaceful when he is no longer part of our lives. I really mean it this time. We tried to make peace but he just didn't realise it. Well, that incident was the last straw. Even I, who was known to have the highest tolerance level and patience among the 3 of us, really blew off on that night.

Friends....
The gal friends I knew and thought were my closest and bestest, seems all to have faded away through thin air... And, the fact is, I don't even know why. Wished they would say but, I am only left with silence. For awhile, I pondered and pondered and could not understand why or what... But, my Hubby said... "No matter what, you still have me, your mum and your sisters, your family." I couldn't agree less. Your family (minus the father part), will always be with you through everything... I didn't miss the father part cos my mum fulfilled that part for me.

I made new friends but never managed to give my whole heart into it again. Maybe, I am afraid that they might abandon me just like the rest... Maybe, I had lost that trust or faith in real friendships. Don't get me wrong... I never hated those who left, but, just felt strange... I do hope that I could still be friends with them but it may not be the same again....

So, I still keep a little group of my really real friends with me who would still be there, even though with just a simple whatsapp message, SMS, FB comments.. My bestie, who is always there for me, my closest colleague who never fails to pat me on my shoulder and kept me sane.

I read a lot these days, since Hubby bought me the Kindle eBook. I am currently doing some homework to start an online business. Who know? I might stop working and do it full-time...


PS: I am sorry, if what is written here may hurt anyone... I am just penning my random thoughts and what I feel now.... A thousand apologies.

iPhone Craze

I got my iPhone 3GS since Oct 09. I haven't got tired of it. Now, almost everyone is using it too. When you board the train... Turn left, turn right, in front of you... iPhone is almost everywhere.

We all share information on the best or latest apps.

- WhatsApp
- Palringo
- Ping! Lite
- Sg Maps
- Sg Buses
- iCab

Been using them a lot...
Recently, I uploaded some apps to allow me to edit photos... Simple editing done using the iPhone.

- More Lomo
- More Beaute
- More Mono
- TuzkiSnap

Will try to post some of the edited pics here soon.... Hubby also recommended Hoccer for file-sharing...

Gadget and techies...

Heard that iPad is out but not in Singapore yet... How good that is, yet to be discovered...

A nice break

I had been away from work since Christmas and will be going back to office tomorrow. It was a good long break for me even though we did not go overseas.

I enjoy the 1st few days relaxing at home since Hubby didn't get the day off. Hubby got his leave approved only from 28 Dec 09 to 31 Dec 09. He did not make any plans so everything was spontaneous.

On 29th, I celebrated my 29th... year of living in this world. Hubby ordered a basket of roses and a cake to surprise me but it did not work as we both went out for lunch with my bestie, Seha and my best dudie, Firdaus (it was a spontaneous invite and we accepted it). We all went to watch Alvin & the Chipmunks 2 at Marina Sq. It was a great movie. I was laughing my jaw off. After the movie, we had ice cream fondue at Haagen Dasz... So syiok! That explains how I gained so much weight (with all these indulgence).

We ordered some food from KFC after that and invited my elder sister and her kiddos together with my lovely neighbours from next door to come by and share the food and the cake. It was just a simple affair but very memorable one. Celebrated my 29th (final year in my twenties) with my close ones...

The next few days were spent at home. Hubby cooked the potato chowder and chee cheong fun, we went out to find the Home Theatre System he promised to get for me (as our wedding anniversary present). We went on a shopping spree (which he pays for everything as my birthday present). We had movie marathons at home, watching Hindi movies, Malay movies and English shows.

When Hubby started working again, I spent the time attending weddings (3 weddings over the weekend) and catching up with my Bestie.

And... tomorrow, I will go back to reality... Work is waiting for me (not sure if it is piling up), but, definitely, I will be buried with work already. I hope to have another long break soon...

Am I ready to forgive?

I hear that you were sorry...
I hear that you said you owed me an apology...
For everything...
For all the things...

But...
Am I ready?
Ready to forget?
Ready to forgive?
Ready to accept?

It dawned upon me that I wasn't...
The trust you betrayed...
The friendship we had...
Never coming back...

I NEED A BREAK....

I NEED A BREAK...

I really do...

I need my space too...

WHY CAN'T THEY UNDERSTAND???!!!