Fat-ness....

I used to be wearing size 24 for my jeans...
Size 3 for my working pants...
Size XS for my t-shirts...
Or Size S for my shirts...

I was weighing only 44kg just about 3 years ago.
And, gosh...
How much I have grown fat....

Argghhh!
I wish I could use my 'magic wand' to poof myself to my old size...

And guess what?
Even my shoe size has increased...
I have a few heels (3 inches and more) which I cannot wear anymore...
What a waste!
Cos' I've worn them only once or twice...
Was thinking of trading these shoes off on Multiply...
Maybe, I'll start taking the photos and start auctioning them off this weekend...

And, I want to slim down again...
Trying my very best...

Forgive and Forget???

"Forgive Me!!!"
He says...
"Ok, you are forgiven..."
She replies...

Ok, alls' forgiven...
But, will all be forgotten?

Some find it so easy to say "Sorry!", "Forgive me!"...
Other find these words the hardest to say...

What's the point of saying those words and yet...
You keep repeating the same mistake all over again?
Once, twice, thrice...
Is enough just to make me lose that respect for you.
Enough...

Just remember...
I can forgive easily, if I want to...
But, to forget...
Never...

Pst! Pst! This is not happening in my marriage or with my husband...
Just needed to let go of some frustration..

'Nenek Keropok'

This rumour on the 'Nenek Keropok' has been travelling around for while. Usually, it would be via email or sms. Here's how the sms goes...

"Bilang keluarga mu semua , kalau ada seorang nenek tua menjual keropok atau kuih muih mengetuk pintu rumahmu, jangan buka kerana nenek itu membawa Kak Pon dengannya. Beliau akan menghasut kita supaya membeli keropoknya. Jikalau kita tidak beli, Kak Pon akan masuk ke dalam rumah kita. Keropok beliau tak sedap dan juga bau busuk. Tengok lubang pintu sebelum buka lain kali. Nenek itu sudah conquer Woodlands dan sekarang daerah Tampines..."

The latest version I received today...

"Makcik keropok sudah dikenali ramai. Sekarang, dia telah buat mentera baru untuk melepaskan 'rakan niaga nya' dengan membuang angin di depan rumah anak melayu kita. Baunya busuk tak seperti bau kentut yang lain. Bau itu pula akan membawa 'kakak' masuk ke rumah awak. Cik kentot atau nama sebenarnya makcik keropok telah menghantui kawasan diaman Tampines. Sebarkan message ini untuk keselamatan buat yang tersayang."

I wonder how true these rumours are...
It has been highlighted in Berita Harian and comments from several people have been asked for.

It is all up to individual understanding, beliefs and perception...

congratz....

My colleague announced that she was pregnant last May 09.... Recently, I went back to MT and found out another colleague of mine (from another department) is giving birth soon... Alamak! Pressure-pressure. Everybody seems to be getting pregnant or delivering soon. When will my turn come.

I went to meet a gynae last week and i was presented with a bad news. They gynae saw 2 cysts, this time in both my left and right ovaries. My heart sank when I heard that this could be the reason why I may have difficulty in conceiving. He advised that I go for a procedure called 'laprascopy' to check for any blockages in my ovaries, fallopian tubes and uterus. He wanted me to have this procedure soonest possible. I am due to go for a pelvic scan on 25 Jul 2009, after which I am supposed to meet him again.

My friends, colleagues and relatives advised to seek a 2nd opinion. Should I or should I not? Maybe, I should... No harm...

Some of my colleagues also shared how some of them also faced a similar problem and some even had to go for some treatment or another to be able to conceive. Perhaps, I may have to do it too....

Pray for me....

May she be happy

I attended a wedding yesterday...
Of a friend whom i loved truly...
Dun get me wrong...
She was one of the best friends I ever have and will treasure...
She looks gorgeous and I do hope that she will be happy ever after...
J, better look after her... look after her well, pls....

Recovering....

Alhamdulillah....
I am recovering...
The lesions are drying up.
I visited the clinic once again for a follow-up.
He wanted to extend my medical leave for another 3 days.
But, i had to refuse as I do not wish to accumulate any more MCs and work.
It is going to be tough, to have to endure the discomfort of the itch and pain...
But, I will have to pull through this.

Another thing...
I am quite disturbed over something. Someone called my home a few days back and informed that she was pregnant. Alhamdulillah, congratulations. She was talking to my lil niece and asked my niece to ask me if I wanted to adopt her baby. I said that I wanted my own baby and guess what? She said... "Abih, lama sangat nak dapat baby?" Did she even think before saying it?

I would love to get pregnant, to have my own child. It's just that I have not been bestowed with it yet. Why can't they understand that? Why the pressure when this should come when it comes? She really blew my day off. I was already very frustrated with the itch and pain from the 'zosters' and she had to add salt to the wound....

I am so bored at home.
Been at home since last Saturday.
I have been on medical leave because of 'shingles' aka 'zosters'.
Very irritating cos it's itchy and painful at the same time.
My mum restricts my meals to just vegetable...
No meat, no eggs.
So boring la...
I wanna recover fast so I can start eating all my favourites....
Oh ya! My mum cooked 'pengat durian' and i CANNOT eat....
ARRRRGGGGGHHH!!!