Blasted...

Just a few minutes ago, I blasted off. I was really very angry and pissed off. I have been keeping these to myself for years and today, I could not keep in within me already. It was like a dormant volcano, waiting to erupt.

The hot button was triggered off when he said, "He never asked for all these to happen to him...". That was when I started ranting off all that was hidden within me all this while. It just won't stop. All I ask for was some peace while I am on leave. I just want to enjoy some quietness for now. Just stop giving us any trouble. You call yourself a Father... So, please act like one... That's all that we need.

I've had just enough of your nonsense, trying to gain sympathy. Please... Realise that it was your folly that led you to this state... Please learn to look back to your own mistakes and admit to it... Instead to pointing your fingers to others. We gave you that last chance 6 years ago. I gave you that last chance 6 years ago... But, you just didn't learn.. It is too late to return to where we all used to be.. Too late. Why won't you just accept that fact? Nothing will ever change that fact.

Sometimes, I wish I could forget. Forgiveness is easy to give but we can never forget how you betrayed our trust, my trust... How, you made it all difficult for us.... How, I had to grow up faster than any of my own peers, because I had to shoulder the responsibilities which was supposedly to be yours.... I just couldn't....

It was a painful journey for me, but I braved through... You never knew, cos, you never saw these tears... You never saw it all since you were all blinded by the so-called love with that venomous snake... that bitch who snatched all from me, from us...

Now, it is all getting back at you... We never thought of getting back at you... But, Allah is great... what goes around, comes around...