My tears...

Today, these tears were shed...

For a moment, i was smiling with happiness when my mother came home with my lil princess, Putri. She was like my own daughter. I heard her at the door, I heard her asking..."Where is Angah? Where is Angah?" That's what she calls me... Hearing that, my heart was jumping. I miss her so much!


It has been awhile since I last saw her. Reason being... I had an argument with my elder sister which strained our sisterly relationship. But, no matter what... Putri has always been the apple of my eye... despite the fact that my elder sister claims that I am not fit to be her aunt. She is always and will always be my lil princess...

We all went to Tampines Mall after she finished school. Went to but my shoe, my handbag... Mother's shoe and some of Eizzy's stuff.


Mother said that Putri and Putra haven't been bought their shoes for raya. I feel so much for them. Brought Putri over to Kiddy Palace and asked her to choose her own shoes. She chose a silver one... very pretty! She's got taste. Then, I asked her... "Why don't you choose one for your lil brother?". She picked the white shoe for her lil brother, Putra.

Putri was hungry, so, we went to get her favourite... MacNuggets from MacDonalds. Headed home after that. I was going to do my prayer (Zohor). Mother told me that Putri's father's gonna fetch her already. And she was crying, refused to go back.

Finally, Bibik Evi came back the second time to pick Putri up, this time with the bag which contains the shoes I bought them. She was hesitant but I knew she had no choice. She is just an employee who had to obey the employer's instructions...

Shida told her to return the shoes back to me... At that moment, my heart sank. I felt that a knife was tearing my heart apart... Without realising it, my tears came rolling down. My chest felt tight with all the crying and trying to hold back my emotions. But right after I said the last "salam", all my emotions just falls from my eyes...

Ya, Allah! Sesungguhnya, hanya Engkau yang tahu, betapa hancurnya hati aku ini atas perbuatannya. Namun, kau ampunkanlah setiap kelakuannya terhadap aku... Kerana, dialah kakak kandungku...